These words come as they are—wandering, wondering, and weaving themselves into meaning.

 May one of these reflections speak to you at the exact moment you need it. 

Instead of creating what I want to see and experience I keep allowing the limiting beliefs to hold me hostage. Why am I not leaning into those moments whenever possible?

Why am I not doing the things that bring me joy consistently?

Why deny myself in that manner? 

Literally settling for the doom and gloom rhetoric…

Letting the “rules” keep me in place. 

Rules created by others and myself.

Often times my rules were way harsher than others.

Staying power. 

We often celebrate staying in a place.

Whether that place is jobs, relationships, other…

Longevity. 

There are times that staying isn’t anything to celebrate because it’s hurting you.

 As soon as we that 5th red flag, go ahead and get up out of that situation. 

I said 5 because you may be like me and just ignore the flags like we’re at Six Flags over Georgia…

I’ve stayed in places too long. 

Why?

I worried about how it will look or sound 

Feeling like leaving early meant I gave up too quick 

Thinking it’s a failure…

Obsessed with quantity over quality. 

What if you stayed 14 years but you suffered, lost yourself, got ill, stalled yourself, didn’t enjoy yourself? 

Do we still celebrate the longevity? 

Just so many rules that my creativity is imprisoned. 

Scared to live, to make mistakes…

Yet knowing the gift and talent is there….

In my last threapy session we talked about me remembering to bring my trophy with me. I won! I am winning even when it looks and feel like I’m losing! 

Allowing myself to dream without a budget because on faith I know my God can do anything but fail me. 

I deserve to live a life of joy. You do too. 

Just some random and unscripted thoughts on a Saturday…